----Gudbye 2011,Welcome 2012----

First at all,i wanna wish to you a "Hepi New Year"...So,this is my last post in 2011..Well,another one hour we will step over to 2012...Nothing is changed and i still is the same person like before...ermmm,twenty eleven is the best year ever for me which is the year that i become a mother..The moments that i never to forget it just because i got a cuteee baby...For the first time i'm being a mommy,for sure that i will remember this year...sweet moments for me n hubby...So, story about vision for 2012,i think,no need to mine for down listing all just because,i'm don't want to wish too much...learn from the past....bnyk sangat azam...nk itu la,nk inilah but at last x smua tecapai...xkan nk carry forward kot??huh!!so,for this coming new year,i just wanna hope that :-

    1)  Be a good wifey to my hubby.....

          2) Be a good mommy for my baby .....

That's all....Otherwise,let me & ALLAH knows...pray for me ya guys...very appreciate it...Guys,for previous years,i must celebrate my new year..nothing to do...just countdown "detik 12 mlm"..then saw the colourful fireworks.. it's so amazing guys...but at the time,i'm still single...tp this year,celebrate kt umah lol...he..he..u know why guys?? i had a baby n i think not suitable to bring her out just only to countdown,see bunga api n bla..bla..bla,,,,so pity to my baby right & at last,me n hubby decide to stay at home..ala,furthermore..xpenting pun benda tue sume...

Without our conscious,masa cepat jer berlalu n now my lil princess was nearly five months,,seiring dengan bertambahnya tahun ofcoz la our age go up right??same goes with me..he..he...25 sudah...but,it's just a figure...hubby???he.he..i try to teased him td..saje cakap dia dh tua..but he answer me back "umur jer tua tp jiwa muda"..ha..ha...yerklah sayang...nway,thanks for da gift that u gave to me...luv you..<3

Last,before i end my post for 2011,let's to pray agar the year that we will through can give us a thousand goodness..Amin..So,gudbye twenty eleven  & welcome twenty twelve..da.......(T_T)...

Triple Date!

How your holidays guys??me had a kinda fun especially can spender alot..."spender" means,spend time together..ha..ha...but 3 days in holiday still not enough for me and tomorrow will continue my works..*sigh*...hurmmm,kalo cuti rase kejap jerk kn tp cuba kalo keje,bapak punyer bosan lol...today we had a triple date..me,hubby n my baby..just hang out to enjoy a chicken chop...suddenly jer hubby teringin nk mkn..Actually,i'm supposed to spend my whole day at home sweet home today but around 3 p.m my hubby ajak kuar...lbh kurng mcm nielah ayat dia :

hubby-b,kuar jom,,,kite g mkn chicken chop..

me-now ker???

hubby-yap..g siap-siap!!

me-ok...(then look at my baby..her keep smile...) mcm tau2 jer mama ngan ayah dia nk kuar..nway,sesekali do family gathering during the holidays will strengthen the relationship  right?

ermmm,my baby like to hang out coz everyday,become the routines for us  to bring her jalan-jalan....xkisahlah jln g mane..taman kt depan umah pun dia x kisah..cuba try test kalo x bwk dia round2..mengamuk x hengat..then bile dpt kuar jer,her show me a smiley face..tersengih2....innocent jer muke kan...rase cm nk geget2 jer..geram sgt...i love u more baby... and thanks to my hubby coz took us g jenjalan tadi..swear..it was super duper happening...i love you tooo..and nasib bek hubby der untk dukung our baby bile g mane2..the problem is,my baby don't want to sitting in the stroller..idk why..and for me,i can't to carry my baby for long time..kalo sejam ok lagi but if more than that??,adoyaiiii..patah pinggang...at last,i just put my purchases into the stroller...hu..hu...maybe my baby tried to bullies her mom's..(kinda)...So,this pic i snap before kuar td...inside car...tadaaaaaaaaaaa....

*amboi adik..pipi.....mama rase nk bite-bite jer...grrrr!!!

Comeyyy x???he..he..Peeps,i think i must end my post now coz tomorrow i must early wake up..workday..haissssh...kan better kalo this day is Saturday..mimpi ke ape aku nie...whatever!!!sleepy now...da...

Me & Baby

*My weakness & strengths..

Yeahhhhhhh...holidays with my "Budaq Tecik"...he..he...i like to called her budaq tecik coz it's hear so sweet jer kan...me n baby is two person can't be separated by any...just because she is mine & instead lol...everyday i treat her but never felt bored..ofcoz la kan...own child..ermmm,,act,i like baby gurl and since i preggy i hope that my first baby is gurl n Allah fulfill my desire...Amin but if at the time i deliver baby boy,i will accepted too coz the most important,baby n me are healthy right??...but fyi, got a baby gurl is a bonus for me..u know why guys?? i'm very excited to dress up my baby be a cutest baby..he..he...yelakan,geram jer tgk dress baby gurl kt mall...baju for baby boy x bnyk pilihan sgt...eventhough i addict the pinky colour but for my lil princess i bought her dresses mix colour..saje jer coz dh bnyk sgt baju dia pink colour..mostly...and she looks very cuteeee in pinky...then,i very like to wearing her a headband...ala yg der big flower tue kan....so comellll...my baby like to wear headband i think coz she never to "tarik-tarik" her headband..x rimas kot... he..he..don't care...peeps,now i had a new hobbies...suke shopping baju baby & sometimes sampai forget nk beli bj sendiri..my hubby ask me supaya no need to buy much for our baby coz his said,baby very fastest to grows up but i can't control myself dr membeli..haissssh...act,i doesn't care  how much i spend my money for my lil princess coz it is one satisfaction  for me if look my baby cantik bergaya..chewahhhh....anak first kan??excited lebih..but if the next time i have a second child,i think no need to buy anymore coz dia boleh pki barang2 akak dia...recycle...for now,i must buy everything that i need for my gegurl,,,it's kinda had fun when bought something for her..that's all...But funny guys,my hubby said,he so scary when his see i'm shopping baby things coz for him that i'm gonna buy all of  the things in that shop..hu..hu...xder la smpi mcm tue skali kan...but i explains back to my hubby that,we can find more money to buy anything but we can't buy a hapiness right?eventhough i know it is all expensive but,don't worried coz each childs that born in this world have a their own sustenance..."Anak itu rezeki"..believe that!! Btw,okay guys...i prefer to out  n buy somethings...see u later..will update the new stories soon...muahhhh...(big smileeeeeeee)=D

~Twenty fIVe of DeCember~

First at all,i would like to take this oppurtunity to wish merry Xmas for those yg celebrate this festival...errmmm,today is tiring day but had fun coz today is my niece engagement...nway,congrates dear...so,the below pic is my niece..so gorgeous kan??

Fuhhh..freaking tired for this day coz my bb asyik nk dukung jer...yelakan,dia xpandai jalan lg..hu..hu..but,it's okay syg,mama will carried u wherever...kay,the below pic is my baby n me...grrr..as usual,my baby not love with the camera..idk why but muke mcm xnk  jer kan...scroll please....

**ishhh,mama nie,inside car pun nk snap pic ...

 so,guys, look at my baby...muke masam jer..he..he..but i don't care...apepun,my baby looks awesome with purple dress..yeah,we're purplish include my hubby...act,my hubby don't like purple colour coz this colour very light for him like "orang muda" his said..erm?ye ker?i don't think so...but for this day,he tried to wear it..suker..suker...suddenly i remember JB aka Justin Bieber..ha..ha..i know,he like purple...That's all guys,will be continue for next time kay....daaaaaaaaa....xoxo!!

---> Motherhood Instinct <---

Hi Peeps,already 11.20 p.m rite now but i still not feel sleepy like usually and my lil princes going slept since earlier...maybe penat sgt hahaha alot with her "ayah"..Act,before my baby born ,i planning to familiarize her to called her dad's "papa" but my hubby said NO!!...he don't like and don't ask me why..for me,ok-ok jerk..then,hubby requested that he want our child called her "abah" but i also said NO!!he..he..fair kan??at last,we decided to used "ayah"...whatever!! u know guys,i wanna to story about " motherhood instinct"..suddenly jer kan but  this feeling i through since had a baby..I always kept thinking and ask myself "yeke??" & the answer is YES!!

Fyi,last nite,everyone's at home already going to slept including of me...maybe us getting tired that the day so sleep well x hengat...my baby lg la..berdengkur lagi..it's mean penat sgt la tue coz she's crying too much the day sbb kembong perut...usually,her sleep in the middle between me n hubby but that night,i put her into cradle sbb ssh sgt nk tido..after that,i slept also ...Then,i don't remember anything but i had a dreamed  about my baby that nite..act,i can't remember what really happened in my dreams but cume rasa der someone yang shake up my body dengan kuat to make me rise up from sleep..this is weird guys & i felt something was happened....Oh My God....my BABY!!!! the first thing that i remember...(Arisya)...i looked at my bb....guess what happened guys??? i'm very shocked coz the blanket that my bb use closed up her fully face...rase lemah semacam n idk know since when is that happened...Me??for sure la cuak semacam then terus rase jantung dia...lega rasenya...her still breathe...i can't imagine if i still not aware from my sleep...(tido mati),bad things will be happen right??inilah yang dinamakan "motherhood instinct" coz as a mommy will knows if something happen to her/his child..believe me...

After the incident,i'm promise to myself that i never to leave my baby alone coz i learned from the past...i'm will never to forgive myself if sesuatu berlaku pd dia...i also knows that bb need extra concern from their parents..that's why eventhough i feel so sleepy at nite but i will wake up each one hour to make sure my baby in a good condition...to my lil princess,"mama x kisah if mama x cukup tido coz take care of you...making your milk,change diapers.... mama did it with sincere without measure just for you...you know guys,i learned something iaitu,what i feel now is same what my mom's feel some time ago and i know how hard it is to be  mother.so guys,appreciate ur mom selagi ada kayyy..i love my mom's too...opsss guys!! dh pkl brape dh nie...nite allsss...sleep well....xoxo!!

Bosan Tahap Gaban !!!

Title entry yang xbleh blah....idk why today was soo boring day.. alot...bosan doe kt opis nie...nothing to do except FB....FB pun still gaban punyer bosan n finally to show off how bored i'am,just expression at my blog & this is !! Felt time move for today very slowly...haissshh...what happened to me???idk why but i feel not very well..got flu since last nite..dgn x cukup tidonyer....that's why rase like blurrr x 2....then,morning came office but xtau nk wat per...fyi,end of the year papers work sume kurang...as usual,many companies doing stock take..maybe..Tp kan,hope la kan if boss ask me for take leave (few days) but salary must gtg right??ofcoz la ...but HELLO!!!!jgn haraplah...whether have a works or not  i must comes to the office everyday..harus!! no excuse kay...tp kalo time holiday tue cuti lah kan..bangla pun tau cuti ape.....he...he..he..ok..mase dh time....adios amigos..chowwww!!!!!

~Just Be yOUrSelF~

*Nie namenyer xde keje...

Hi guys,,,,are u okay??everything fine with your day's going on??hopefully...=D..erm sooo boring tonite..as usual,my baby already sleeping & maybe dh smpi London agaknyer....sweet dream yerk syg...well,nothing to do right now & i decide to write something @ my bloggieee...oppsss!!! tetiba plak hubby said "sehari x on9 x boleh ke? kt opis dh on9,kt rumah pun nk on9 ?"...errrrr,,speechless...sowy sayang...one hour jerk k...pls..pls..pls.. act,hubby srh masak for dinner td but i don't have a mood for do it...tue yg tarik muke semacam...at last,tapau jer lah..If take away after mkn leh terus throw away kan xpyh nk keep cleaning like "basuh pinggan"...simple...he..he..

Kay,suddenly rase nk publish the above pic..so,the pic i snap before went to wedding invitation a few weeks ago...while waiting hubby get ready lame sgt,so apalagi Webcam la...dah name pun xde keje kan...FYI,many pic i snap tau but this was enough..xmo lebih2...bukan artis pun..Ermmm..guys,to be honest,sometimes tergerak hati nk wear hijab..you know hijab??same meaning with "tudung" la...but idk till now still not wearing it..nway,i already bought two pieces of tudung n still dlm almari...hubby pun der request that he ask me to wearing it but i think this is "soal hati"...kalo pakse pun un useful kn? it's hear like x ikhlas jer...eventhough i know,ramai org kt luar sane maybe thinking negative to me when their read my statement & said "alaaa,itu pun nk tunggu terbukak hati ker?"..it's okay..itu hak diorang...for me,if we want doing a kindness, must be with whole of heart & ofcoz will be remains for lasting & not for temporary..in another words "setengah-setengah"...as example kejap pki, kjp x pki...

Story about sin & rewards,Only ALLAH yg layak to judge it..kite sape untuk mengadili orang kan??orang yang disangka baik itu not sure baik & instead...Okaylah,i admit..dulu if there's people tegur about my atitude,mesti cepat melenting..n then ask them "have you done enough for yourself?mcm bagus sgt nk advice org!!!"many time i've been saying like that to them but bile pk balik,no need to argue with them but just thinking positive...whether we want to accept or not,it's up to others...i'm supposed to appreciate what the people around me react like that..maybe mereka sygkan aku that's why mereka tegur aku kan???

And now,i think,i'm become more matured..jika before this,my brain is not so useless tp sekarang feel better..maybe since my baby comes in my life...even not 100%,at least had a little bit improvement...Thanks God...feel better now can express my feelings that had been kept in my heart.. kayyyy,guys..i'm gonna end this post now...last but not least,just be yourself in any conditions..if you have any problem,pray+doa coz this is a good solution in every way possible...& for me too...i'm never think that's mine seorang yang bagus & x terniat pun nk bajet gud-gud but nothing wrong if we try menjadi yg terbaik kan??people change..so,just look forwards..let's together for be the best in life...don't give up kay...Amin...

~a MiRaCles~

Hi peeps!!how your weekend??is it greats???mine???so boring today coz i don't know where to go..lgpun it's rains out there so i decide to stay at home wif my hubby and budaQ tecik...yeah...family gathering...hr minggu kan...act,there's something i want to sharing about.....................tadaaaaaaaaaaaa

*ngeeeeeee..COMEL jer kan????=D

4 month++ budak tecik nie dh pndi meniarap n then asyik nk do that jer...it was a miracle for me...it's okay dear...the most important,dia nk berusaha,coz there's some baby very late to do anything like "meniarap"..but Arisya did it cume kene struggle sket yerk syg...xmo CRYING bile xleh nk angkat kepala...slowly k & mom's know that you will ...just take a time right?? hurmm,guys,sometimes i feel,being a mommy need a big sacrifice..must be strong mentally & physically ...Everything that baby do,need monitoring from us seriously....i said like this coz this is my first experience being a mommy..many things need to learn...not easy to bring up a child...Lbh2 lagi if baby yg always "meragam"...i admit,sometimes my temperature quickly up when my bb show me her temper like menangis n meragam...,<----(the two things that sometimes i can't to handle it eventhough dh puas pujuk) & suddenly i got angry wif my baby and scolded her..OMG...This is not my character...Where is the nature of motherhood???then bile pk balik, baby don't know anything and i'm not should be to do like this...rase nk menangis pun ader...truly regretted what with i did...honestly,i don't wanna hurt my baby..i love her damn so much than myself...this is my fault...i'm wanna be a good mother for her..that's all..i'm supposed to say thanks to God for giving me a chance being a mother..bukan sia-siakan the great gift yg diberi...ya ALLAH,pls give me a patience to face anything that you have given to me..indeed,i'm a weak person...I heart my baby too much..Note!!

yeahhhh...Holiday!!!!

Hi lovessss...met again....nothing to do this nite and so boringg....suddenly i'm decide to update my bloggiee...he..he...and the best part,sok xkeje...Act,i'm supposed to work tommorow but saje absence just because i want to spend my time with my lil princess much2...it's been too long guys coz saturday & sunday i certainly holiday...for this month,already many times i onleave but who's care n i don't care too...lantaklah kan...for me,we can earn more money as we can but we can't earn more time especially with person that we loving...honestly,mcm xpuas plak nk HaHaHaHa with ARISYA...and time cutilah I have a chance to be with her...so sad coz working day sometimes xder mase nk treat her..from morning till evening at baby sitter's house then after take  n bring her to our house,ARISYA already sleep..zzzzzzz...and the next day will repeat the same  routines from Monday to Friday...I'm worried about one thing which is,ARISYA akn rase kurang ksh syg from her mom but actually not like that..i truly love her so much..that's y i requested to my boss,saturday xnk keje....nasib bek bos considered....sometimes i heard people said,working mommy more concerned with property & $$$$...pls la,don't think negative coz you're not deserved to talked like that..no matter what,eventhough i'm working mommy but i still concern with my family...many times i said,family first right??sesibuk mcm mane pun,my hubby,my baby x pernah diabaikan cume we must know how to "bahagi masa"between kerja dan keluarga,cinta dan cita-cita..that's all...up to others...this is my opinions...whether working or not,there's had a own benefit so don't argue wif my statement...u know why i said like this????think wisely yah guys,i would like to share with each others..honestly, lebih penat bg working mommy likes me..yelah,pnt kt opis xhilang...then balik rumah do housekeeping lg... i means,masak n kms sket2 ape yg messy...it's extra works but i admit "if work,had a money and we can buy anything without harapkan duit suami"at least worth it kan??? I always pray that ALLAH give me a strength to serve my life,diberikan ketabahan,kesihatan supaya i can survive my life with completeness...i don't want to ask for more coz i never gave more...i'm a weak slave..yahh...pls guide me if i'm wrong and i  will promise to improve myself 2  be a good person muchx2...AMIN...

I hate Migrain!!!!!!!!!

Hey migrain!pls go away from my life!!!!!!..i hate you seriously!! grrrr you make my mood hancusss...today i took leave just because i had a migrain..ya,chronic migrain....act,i don't know since when i addict this pain but seriously,i don't like..yelakan,mn der org yg suke sakit...hu..hu...migrain make me lazy to do anything..just mkn tido,mkn tido,on9...but hubby said"on9 x migrain plak?"...for sure lah...no matter was happened,on9 tue harus...hu..hu...nway,my friends suggest to me to do tradisional treatment like bekam guna lintah tue..euwwwww...tgk lintah pun dh meremang bulu roma what more if lintah jalan2 kt kepala kan...but,it's very effective for those that easily got a migrain...before this,when migrain attack me,i'm just took a panadol+coca-cola but i know this is not good for healty n kidney blh rosak tp sakit tue blh reduce sket coz i always practice it...weird guys,i don't know why 90 percent who have a migraines are woman..pompuan cpt stress ker??whatever....the most important,when i'm got this pain,hubby la yg pening...bkn ape,my temperature suddenly high..asyik nk mrh je...sorry yer encik somi...xder niat pun,,,my bb pun kesian coz her mommy also ignoring her ..sory dear...that's y i hate migrain coz sbb migrain,both of them can get the impact....

OH NO!!!!!!!!!!

mErEKa "kesayanganku" =D

*SERIOUSLY,I CAN'T THROUGH MY LIFE WITHOUT BOTH OF THEM....

Just sharing....
First at all,thanks ALLAH coz gave me a good husband n cutey precious...i love both of them more than my self...from bottom of my heart,i don't want to losing them coz they are my soul...sometimes,i'm proud to be parts of their lives...maybe,people outside haven't luck like me so,i must always pray so that the hapiness that i had will be lasting forever n ever...pray for me ya guys...Amin...I need both of them no matter what..every time i was sad,happy,mereka adalah segalanya...erm,maybe i'm not a good mommy/wife..yela kan,nobody perfect but i will try to be the best in everything i do...INSYAALLAH...i really wish and hope so...for hubby,sorry if almost one year++ b becomes your wife i've make mistakes..so sorry but one thing  i just want you to know,it's great to being your wife..sumpah!!!eventhough sometimes b suke membebel bla..bla..bla...but,trust me,i really love you...pls don't keep it at your heart..just leave on...b n ica is your responsibilities, ica n you is my priority...take note!we need each others kerana kita adalah satu..for my lil princess,mama really love you too..so much....nobody can't split you from mama...never!i will promise to take care you whole of my heart...mama will do anything for you n mama really hope that you will grow up as a good child,dengar kate,hormat org tua n pls be nice to all...for now,mama faham kalo ica slalu meragam...menangis n show off your temper..mama akn sbr hadapi karenah ica tp bile dh bsr,be a gud girl k syg...luv you...that's all...


Dearly,
Wife kpd Abdul Rizal...
Mommy kpd Nur Qairina Arisya...

+HaiRfALLs+

Hi guys....so,how your weekend??it's great?mine biase-biase jer...nothing interested this day coz just spend my whole time with my lovesssss....planning awal nk g walk in..xkirelah kt mane kan but hubby had a football game..erm,so sad but it's ok..next week syg mesti take us jenjalan k...hurmmm,guys,i'm worried about my hairs...my hairs falls seriosly...before this not so bad like this..idk why...someone told me,if bb doing foam,ala...yg buih2 kt mulut tue,rambut boleh gugur...i don't know whether to believe or not..tp mungkin jugak kan...or shampoo problem??maybe i'm not compatible with DOVE shampoo...bnyk sgt rambut gugur...everyday...hubby pun smpi bising coz kt toilet penuh with my hairs..i'm so scared coz terlalu bnyk like get a "Leukimia"...grrrr..hope not...moreover,i had migrain..serius migrain..is'it one of the factor hairfalls??isk..isk..kalo berterusan like this boleh botak kepala..i must find the solution...ya...should be!!i'm planning to cut my hair..not too short just shoulder level but my hubby didn't allow mine to do it..he ask me to think wisely..erkkk,...for me,rambut boleh pnjg lg kan?why him said like this..maybe he likes me with long hair...nmpk gegurl sket kan.act,i truly love my long hair  and feel love to cut shortly...but how with my hairfalls problem??arghhhh....i don't know what to do...pls advice me guys...i'm still gonna keep it long but at the same time rimas ngan rmbut yg gugur..hu..hu...=D...

December...

Hi dear,,!!so,how your life??hope everything will be ok like mine...ok ker???maybe kot...Already December now and January 2012 will coming soon..see,how fast time flies without you knowing....first at all,i hope this year will be end with happy ending eventhough many things still belum achieve but never mind coz i can brought forward my target to next year..hurmmmm...as usual...still delay n delay...it's not my big matter and the most important,one of my dreams already comes true like had a child...act,being a mommy at a young age is my dream...For sure i'm very happy...guys,i'm worried about something..lately my hubby always said about nk tambah ank..he suggest to me for next year..grrr..omg...i didn't know how to explain to him...i'm supposed to be free for 2 years...at least right..hurmmmm..syg,i can't give you answer immediately coz i'm blank with your request...speechless...we will discuss later n not now yerk syg...i got my own reason n don't ask me what....ok!stop story about this....erm,this coming 31st December is my mom birthday...i'm still haven't idea about my mom's present..actually,my mom request to all her daughter that her want a "Microwave"..it's means we must collect the money each others...it's okay ma...as long as you happy, us will provide to you...hepi besday mom,,,GOD bless you n i love you more than myself...muahhhx3...enough ! feel sleepy now...zzzzzz...k dearist,nothing to say again....sleepwell wokeyyyy...xoxo =D *HUGS*

take in action =D

Actually,my baby can't split with her "NIPPLE"...maybe since her new born aku dh sumbat nipple that's y until now her still need a nipple..but "orang tua"say,if baby always suck a nipple,leh become jongang x pun melambatkan proses pertumbuhan gigi..i'm not sure about this..is'it true guys?..i'm try to make her familiarize without nipple but you know peeps,ICA sucking her finger...whole..noty kan..sometimes smpi basah tangan n sebab tue i didn't want to wearing her a mitten..more dirty rite??worried if her get stomach...but nurse said,kalo bb sucking her finger it's normal...maybe...so,i snap her pic when her "curi-curi" hisap jari,,funny guys.hurmmmm,,.ica..ica..you makes mama smile when looked your actions...let me introduce what ICA says..(dlm hati dia la kan....)

 "ermmm..mama marah x eik kalo tau ica hisap jari nie?"

"xmrh kot sbb mama kan syg ica..hbs mama x bg ica puting"

"tadaaaaaaaa..xboleh tahan dh nie..nk hisap jugak!!..."

he..he..he..so cuteeeeee. kan ???rase rugi pulak jika x abadikan detik2 indah perkembangan my lil princess because each moment that was happened between us are so valuable....seriously...xoxo =D

Sedih...

~Communication break down??again...mcm org bodoh when always talked the same things...idk whether this problem comes from me or not but if come from me,fine!! i still boleh accept but when the mistakes comes from you?say sorry pun xnak then wat bodo like nothing happened..you're too much sometimes n you're 

SELFISH person i think...i always reminds you that the things no need to reminds..boleh pk sendiri ape??nie gua jugak yg ingtkan sume...chill la..pls be matured wokeyyy...try to compare your age with me??totally different but how could i'm more matured n can thinking before said something bukan dh said br nk thinking like u....ok,u always said,nobody perfect but try la to be perfect..kalo x pandai nk amik hati,atleast jagalah hati....i think it's not difficult cume nak ngan xnk jer...pls take care about my feeling..aku manusia..bukan patung...i don't want to request anything sbb aku tau you're not be able to do..i'm just want you to exchange your attitude..kalo xleh bnyk,little bit pun ok n the most important,nk berubah bukan sbb terpaksa atau dipaksa...sedih...setiap kali have a problems you're never to find the solution n asyik aku jer yg nk pk...i'm blank..blurrr n whatever...boring doe kalo slalu mcm nie...so,bak kate NABIL "Lu Pikirlah Sendiri"...that's all..Sekian.TQ~

*H O P E*

*ALOLOLO....CUTENYER BB NIE...SUPERB!!!

Ok,everyone in this world have a dream...xkisahlah about ape pun..same goes with me..i have one dream but till now still xleh nk achieve it...act,bukan aku x usaha to get it maybe belum der rezeki,,so,sabar jelakan coz for me if kite usaha plus doa,ALLAH akan makbulkan cume we didn't know whether quickly or slowly...i HOPE one day,my dream comes true...AMIN...

~Malaysia Next Top Model~

*actually gurl not miss with pink ya?? :D

So,today i do my paper works quickly coz i want to met my daughter after that heading to shop n buy something...suddenly i find a pink headband..haishh..pink lg???but who's care???i bought the headband n ofcozlah my bb be a model...hu..hu...see the pic...ICA not love with the camera...ssh nk tgk dia senyum when snap her pic...

A ~ Muke ICA cam x puas hati when ask her to look at camera...

B ~ Still show off her "perangai"xmo layan mama dia..noty yerk syg!!!


C ~ Bile kene mrh br look at camera but muke cam x ikhlas jer...naise your love sayang.....muahhhhh

Tired :(

 
Hurmmm...Idk why today is tired day...my body,my brain n everything..maybe i need a rest..u know what,since had  a bb,i only get 4 hours for my bedtime..it's not enough coz i'm working person..if x keje ok what??act,i'm not sigh with my routines...n for my little precious,mama x kisah pun if x cukup tido coz treat you dear...but sometimes feel tired smpi2 xsdr my tears falling down..that's mean dh terlalu pnt..kalo x pnt xkan smpi boleh nangis kan???hubby??erm,he considered with me...that's y i love him...not fair kan if aku slalu mengeluh itu dan ini so "silent" pls...hu..hu...Holiday plak,jgn hrp nk wakeup lmbt...kol 6 pg dh bgn..my bb if dh bgn kol 6 am xmo tido lg..do la something ,still xmo tido then nk srh org layan dia bla..bla..bla..bile xde yng layan dia,crying n jerit smpi jiran sblh blh dgr...xpe syg..mama x mrh syg..maybe itu satu perkembangan but pity of me kan??that the reason why me already thin...ha..ha...do the same routines all day make me bored...sometimes la eventhough hubby always help me to do anything but tired tue ttp ade...haisssh...as always i said,i can't to get sick coz if i'm not very well,for sure everything hancur..means,rumh cm kapal karam,bb x terurus n hubby???it's very important for me to care my health..ya...should be!!!no matter what kan?huh..it's not easy to be me...i know...

-----ICA already 4 months-----

Hi peeps !!Hello Dear...it has been a long time i didn't update my blog...lame pun xla lame jugak..just a fews day...act,except blog,i always keep in touch my news at FB...that's why i rarely update blog..ermmm,nevermind...today my precious already 4 months...impressive growth kan??rase cm br smlm jer dia lahir tetiba dh 4 bulan...he...he...today i half day sbb g klinik checkup bb..i means timbang berat bb...u know guys,lame sgt kt clinic tue..adelah dlm 3 hours...rase dh hilang sbr pun der...nielah kalo berurusan ngan gomen...lembab cm siput...xpk mslh org lain.. 3hours????so long..haishhh...pity my baby..ofcoz la kan..not comfortable during their stay there..jgn kate bb..aku pun naik fedup x 10000..rase nk maki pun der but nasib bek lah can control my emotion...forget it..menyakitkan aty jer..Nway,my baby goes very well..everything...that nurse say...

WEIGHT = 6.2 KGS (Great!!see her cheek pun also known kan??)
ACTIF     = TERLEBIH ACTIF...(sometimes feel tired to treat her...hu..hu...but i like it)
COMEL  = OFCOZ....
HEALTH = MEMBERANGSANGKAN...(hope ank mama sentiasa sihat yerk syg...)
ABILITY=  Mengiring,Meniarap,Membebel,Menjerit bile x nmpk mama dia n dh pandai senyum                     bile ade orang "mengagah"..(betul ke aku spell nie??hu..hu..)

That's all peeps...i feel like perfect mom when can see my bb grows up in front of my eyes...that's awesome n her make my life alive..swear!!!honestly,i can't far away from her..it's really hurt..don't ask me why..Idk..

but the only things that's i know,i can't through my life without her..k.guys,i'm done..i'll keep on update again..just wait...take care..xoxo!!!Last but not least,there's one  picha of ICA...so,that the pic i snap before go to clinic...



*nape ICA muke cuak jer nie..tkt injection yerk syg???apepun,Ica still gorgeous with pinky dress,,,







*Cukur Jambul ISYA with Luv*

Hi peeps!!!!!! how your days??everything ok??If ok,ALHAMDULILLAH...he..he..rindu nk typing nie...bnyk benda nk story mory...well,act last saturday, i already finished do "cukur jambul" event...that's so amazing guys...atleast,tercapai gak niat aku nk wat ..smuanyer for sure la kan untuk NQA...just 4 you syg...don't noty2 yerk ...be a good child...fuhhhh..freaking tired after majlis...rase cam nk tercabut pinggang but puas hati dgn smuanyer..thanks abah,mak coz sudi arrange smuanyer...many thanks to orang block yg sudi sumbangkan tenaga for this event...terbaekkkk la.... : )...speechless...so,that's all guys...nothing 2 say...Here's some pic untuk tatapan korang...so layannnnnnssss..

*LOVING THE DECORATION..LOVELY!!

*CRADDLE RINGKAS FOR MY PRINCESS..!!

*BUNGA RAMPAI WITH FRESH SMELL!!

 *SOUVENIRS & EGG FLOWERS FOR LOVELY GUESS...

*ORANG KUAT DISEBALIK MAJLIS..THANK'S ALOT JIRAN!!

*BEFORE MAJLIS TESTING DULU...BABY SIAP SLEEPING BEAUTY LG..HA..HA..

And Tadaaaaaaaa,the real  pic of event..Cute enough right??

*LITTLE PRECIOUS MAMA & AYAH..,<3 MUAHHH!!

Photo Session...

*ABOVE PIC IS BABY WITH MOK DE,MAK LONG & MAMA | BELOW PIC IS ME & YOUNGER SISSY..THE ONE YANG PUT MAKE UP ON ME THAT DAY..HE..HE..

*ME & HUBBY IN PINKY..YEAY!!

And last but not least,,,,,

*HAPPY FAMILY..AMIIN... :)

That's all guys!! Tiring day but have fun...fun..fun..fun...END..xoxo!!

~It's hUrt But I hEaRt~

Hi readers,met again!!.hurrrrmmm...why tonite so boring ha? pns pun yerk...haishh...(*sigh*)....peeps,boringlah mlm nie,hubby out n my baby dah lame tido...nyenyak plak tue..so,apalagi,blogging la kan...he..he...ICA tido senyum2..ntah ape yg dia mimpi..sweet dream yerk syg...muahhhhx3...sometimes,aku mcm x caye jerk that's mine already become a mother...young mother...ha..ha..u know what,ade org ckp aku likes "anak dara"he..he..weeeeeeee....diorang cam x caye jer aku dh jd ibu dah...gorgeous mama...(pasan betul kan??)well,that's people say..not me...act,i'm proud to be a mom..lg suke "status"mom tue..lbh2 lg ade bb yang comel penghibur dikala sunyi...tengok muke dia rase tenang jer...kalo blh,xnk wat keje lain..nk tgk muke dia jer 24 hours...comel2 pun,sakit woo nk kuarkan dia...tuhan jer yg tau...nie yg nk flashback balik nie saat2 melahirkan..jeng..jeng..jeng..let's story...

Act,due date aku 3/8/2011 but der org kate,kdg2 anak first cepat...one week sblm due tue nervous gak...tggu jugak tp xde pun tande2 nk bersalin  sampailah 2/8 tue aku g keje cam biase..mase tue sume umat islam dh nyambut pose ke2...kt tempat keje aku dh rase lain mcm dah coz rase mcm kepala bb der kt bwh..bwh sgt tp leh ignore lg coz mak aku ckp,tande nk bersalin der kuar drh atau air sket..ofis hour smpi kol 5.30,setiap kali aku melangkah rase betul2 dh kt bwh tp mls nk bg tau hubby then terus call mak n told her..

mak force aku srh g tp aku mcm blm prepare lg la kan dr segi mental dn fizkal...berbelah bg doe nk g ke x sepital..arghhh,nantilah,,mase otw balik,hubby tegur cakap muke aku nmpk pucat aku ckp xar..biase je..xnk dia makin risau,aku apelg,merengek2 manje ckp nk g bazar then kitorang sempat lg g bazar...mase kt bazar,jalan x hengat,beli itu,beli ini...(ms nie,rase kepala bb dh betul2 kt bwh) after that,kitorang terus balik 

umah...sempat lg ar berbuka wlpn sebenarnyer aku x pose..he..he..mkn bnyk plak tue pstu aku terus mandi,tacap sket suddenly rase cam sesuatu nk terkeluar..cpt2 ajak hubby g sepital..br kelam kabat..aku ckp kt hubby,drive slow2 sbb aku xkuar tanda pun...sempat lg...HSI la pilihan aku..dekat pun dekat..smpi kt tempt emergency der petugas sepital anta aku kt ruang menunggu...hubby cr car park la kan...ms tue dh seram sejuk dah...tetibe nurse panggil cek jalan...perghhh!!!x sakit plak kan kene seluk...sakit bodoooo (say dlm hati) ..main seluk jer..lame plak tue..xtau aku sakit...tetibe nurse srh aku salin baju sepital..aku suke coz bj dia kaler pink,,he.he..hampeh kan,,u know what guys,dah bukak 4CM...that's why kene tahan,,,giler ar...nasib bek mase aku g bazar td x terberanak kt situ..yelakan,dh bukak jln smpi cam tue..sedih jer mase tue..aku pas sume brg2 aku kt hubby n aku x bwk aper terus masuk labour room...berdebar siot...maunyer x...masuk jer dlm bilik bersalin,doc pelatih laki ckp nk pecahkan ketuban aku..Whatttt??????rase cm nk lompat jer dr katil smpi aku ckp ngan nurse nk balik blh x coz aku xder rase nk bersalin lg...nurse pun x nk layan aku, wat bodo jer...no choice kan,serah diri jer la...tau2 dh pecah dah ketuban,,hbs dia seluk2 bg bsr jln..doc laki plak tue...malu jgn ckp la but who's care kan..dh sakit...nk kencing pun pki tiub tau..dh x boleh bgn...pastu doc srh aku relax coz nk tggu jln bukak smpi 10cm..mase tue dlm kol 8 lbh n dia ckp,setiap 2 jam dia dtg cek jln means nk seluk lg..hotakkkk ar,,,my hubby????tetibe plukan dia..then aku tekan butang merah kt side katil..x smpi brape minit nurse masuk,,aku srh dia panggil laki aku then dia ckp,hubby aku kene balik dulu salin suar coz dia pki suar pendek n x dibenarkan masuk..spoil betul la...time tuelah nk pki suar pendek pun,,,i need him,,,hbs sume pekerja sepital lalu kt bilik aku panggil srh call my hubby jumpa aku..henpon aku xder plak nk call...seksanye mase tue,,br aku tau,yg dia begitu penting bg aku...smpi kol 9 lbh br hubby aku masuk..fuhhh,tng sket jiwa,,sakit pun kurang..tetibe doc masuk  ckp nk cek jln lg...xnk boleh x????he..he..sakit siot,,kalo blh xyah selok2 terus beranak..nie nk tggu 10cm gak smpi nurse pesan,selagi x 10 cm jgn teran,,,ade aku kisahhhhh..mase tue perasaan hiba sgt bile hubby x henti2 cium dahi aku bg semangat,,,dan bile mate aku start berkaca..yes,i'm crying...lglah hubby hugs aku tightly...aku apelagi la,lg kuat merengek..mintak ampun dn maaf kt dia if der wat dose kt dia then dia ckp,dia dh maafkan sume slh aku dunia akhirat..so sadddddd...ms tue aku dpt rasekan betapa hangatnya ksh syg dia pd aku..thanks syg...

tsk...tsk...terharu...pastu,nurse masuk plak,dia masukkan air kt aku..dia ckp nk bg aku cepat bersalin..lps masuk air tuelah contraction each 5 minutes...sakit giler...rase mcm nk terajang jer sume brg2 yg kt sebelah aku..sore aku mengerang jgn ckp ar,smpi kaunter leh dgr tp dulik ar kan..dh sakit...ade sorang nurse stay kt bilik jaga aku..baik nursenyer...lame lg ke nk 10cm nie..sakit kejap dtg kejap pegi..time sakit dia dtg tue lah aku rase cm nk mati..tawakal jer lah then aku ckp kt nurse dh x tahan lg..bb nk kuar aku terus pushhhh...x smpi berapa minit nurse masuk ngan doc pelatih..kali nie doc pelatihnyer pompuan...dia srh aku pushhh mcm nk buang air bsr tp aku x rase nk buang kan so dia ckp aku xpndi teran...hotak dia..aku pushhhh mcm nk mati dia kate aku x usaha..suara aku kuat sgt then sume nurse kt kaunter masuk bilik aku..skrg makin ramai yg tgk aku bersalin..keliling..tue pun nk tgk..rmi2 wat per..wat semak jer...bkn bg support lg membebel kt aku...hubby aku still kt sblh aku..aku pushhh2 x kuar2 pun bb smpi hilang tenaga dh then doc ckp,kalo xnk bb lemas baik pushhh kuat sket..bile aku pk tkt bb lemas,aku sekuat tenaga pusshhhhh smpi menggigil2 bdn aku...then aku dgr doc gunting bg sng sket bb kuar..sakit kene gunting x rase jika nk compare ngan sakit bersalin..lbh 10 kali jugaklah aku push smpi dh give up..baru kepala kuar sket aku stop push masuk balik kepalanya...hbs,aku nk amik nafas jugak kan...suddenly nurse srh aku minum air selusuh then after minum baru der tenaga n aku pun push...zuuppppppp...yes,bb dah kuar..bb gurl spt yg aku harapkan tepat kol 1.04 pagi,3/8/2011..exactly my due date kan??...rase lega,terus longlai bdn aku..bb doc letak ats dada aku..sakit pun hilang mase tue bile tgk muke bb n dgr sore dia nangis...so cute...hubby pun amik bb tue tuk diazankan dan diiqamahkan..n aku doc jahit bahagian yg kene gunting tue..lantaklah nk wat per..janji bb dh kuar...tetibe rase lapar lps tue then nurse bg air milo...xcukup siak 1 cawan...mcm nk 1 botol...aku stay 1 hr kt sepital together with my bb...hubby dpt teman kt wad smpi kol 5 pg jer then kene srh kuar oleh guard...tghari nanti br blh dtg lg untuk uruskan billing..i know,dia berat hati nk tinggalkan aku ngan bb n x smpi brape minit,he text me which is the content "Thanks syg kerana melahirkan anak yg comel untuk saya..take care b n jaga Buah Cinta kite baik2... saya sayang awak "he..he...senym smpi ketelinga aku..so sweet kan..rase betul2 dihargai...

That's all guys..itulah pengalaman terindah yg pernah aku through in my life..walaupun still trauma dgn kesakitan but berbaloi bile skrg ade my little precious disebelah aku....dialah segalanya..aku bahagia dgn ape yg aku ade skrg..relations between aku n hubby pun ber+  erat dgn kehadiran NUR QAIRINA ARISYA...dialah rezeki RAMADHAN & SYAWAL for us... :)

Finally............

Helooooooooo dearrr....long time not update this blogieeeeeee kan...he..he..saje...mls pun yerk coz lately nie xder mood..lbh2 lg split with my daughter..1 week tue...lame kan...n for 1 week tue,nk do anything pun maleh...haishhhh...but now,everthing back to normal..for sure la kan coz Arisya already with me n i'm never to split with her again..mcm hilang nyawa plak bile dia xder..ofcoz la kan...own daughter must feel like this...kalo x rase perasaan mcm tu x taulah nk ckp mcm mane...1 week x see her face like org giler...just call my mom n ask about ICA...sometimes,mom send MMS for me...terubat sket la rindu...thanks mom...luv you too...muahhhhx3...thanks coz take care ica too...ica syg nenek juga..(on behalf ica)...first grandchild mesti syg lbh kan????ok,lets continue,ica skrg makin tembam...pipi jer dh bape kilo agknyer..ha..ha...but it's ok syg..mama x kisah pun...impressive growth....rindu giler kt dia...hbs kene kiss-kiss sejak aku smpi kt mersing and balik semula ke JB...rimas agaknyer dia...biaselahkan.ciuman tuk seminggu...ayah dia rileks jer..he..bkn x rindu tp aku tau,dia lg rindu cume mls nk show off kan?takut nanti org ckp "dlm hati ada taman pulak"....
 Apepun,rinduku sudah terubat n here's some pictures untuk tatapan korang...

          tadaaaaaaaaaaa....

           tadaaaaaaaaaaa....

            tadaaaaaaaaaaa....

          * Arisya with Ayah .... same kan?????

That's all peeps...see u again...muah..muah...xoxo...bye..bye...!!!!!!!

Johan?

<------ hye dear!u know this person? i think a lot of people recognize him...OMG...i do admire this guys...hensem kan..kan..kan..i start fall in luv with him since watch out Cinta Elysa @ TV3...lakonan yng bersahaja but will gave big impact to all viewer..good job JOHAN...keep up your good acting..i know u will go far in art industry...cayok !cayok !erm,Cinta Elysa it's story about a rich girl fall in luv with Aril which is seorang yg kasar(pd luaran) but actually he seorang yg caring,loving n understanding...thats y elysa still need Aril in their life because she know,Aril will take care her whole of heart...erm,for me,this is a good story that i ever watch...very

impressed with the sweet plot between them....sweet couple truly is it?wa...kan best kalo fasha couple ngan johan...korang mesti sweeetssss....peeps,u know what,Cinta Elysa have a high rating..See,nmpk sgt cite nie best kan sbb dpt tarik viewer to follow this story but yg x bestnye cite nie seminggu skali & duration for one hour..kejap kan?apepun...layannnn.!! ok friends,nothing to write again...have a good life ok..last but not least,
even Johan are so hensem but in my heart,my hubby still no.1..X slh kalo nk admire kan? but don't adore sgt2 lah...ha..ha... *xoxo*

*keje*

                    *See,this is my office..so messy..huh....but oklah.....

Hey it's monday!!!!!Act, i had monday...u know why,it's first day in week..thats why make me so lazy....grrr...mls nk wake up at the morning...do my paper work...ofcoz la banyk gile...one word to describe my feeling rite now, STUCK!!!!!...sometimes,feel bored to do anything at office...he..he..n kdg2 kan,1 hari FB sampai x buat keje langsung...my boss??he didn't know anything...lgpun,he rarely masuk opis...one week only 2 or 3 times dia msk...who's care kan?aku apelagi,enjoy giler ar...n for sure la blogging...erm,let's story guys,u know what,one day aku ingt boss x masuk n aku ber FB x hengat...tau2 la...kalo dh on9 ssh nk stop kan n leka jer..suddenly bos comes from back..whoaaa...nervous beb n tetibe x sempat nk minimize..kantoi la apalagi...funny kan..honestly,bos x pnh scolded aku since aku keje kat situ cume pas insiden tue aku more careful la...must be respect kan even dia x mrh...xnk plak nanti dia thinks aku just take advantage..erm,forget it...as usual, i'm kind a fun wif my life...i means...wake up,keje,balik,met my daughter,,,that's all my routine everyday,,,*sigh....get tired guys...but no choice kan....nak xnak kene through jugak...kdg2 curi2sleep while working..ha..ha..like "mkn gaji buta" is it?i'm a mom,wife n i'm working...i must have a lot energy rite to do anything....can u imagine when u at the place of me?getting tired all the time...hu..hu...thats why i can easily get migrain...btw,apepun yg korang lakukan,enjoy jer..pnt ke ape ke,just go on k!!!...by peeps...will met you again..lots of love-mimie

___m[> <]m__ SEDIH...SAD....UNHAPPY & WHATEVER !!!!

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Dear friends...

How your day?everything goes well?hopefully...today my feeling not very well...unhappy with someone yang x tau nk appreciate kebaikkan orng...i'm so tired when terpakse jaga hati orang but hati sendri terluka...i'm try to be a good person bagi semua org but in the end smuanya sia-sia...what should i do this now...crying n crying :(

 but wif my tears,who's care??????xder meaning sume tu...as usually people say...kwn ketawa ramai but kawan menangis haram xder....i don't know what i'm going to do...i love all my friends who love me too and sebaik mungkin to protect our friendship as long as i will but dgn apa yang berlaku,it's truly hurt my heart..alot...

life always teach me about everything and now baru aku tau..wake up mimie...just be yourself...no need to care about "perasaan"orang...care your own feeling first be4 thinking another person..just way what you want to way..after that,no more tears falling down...guys,hope so...

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~My First Wedding Anniversary~(23.10.2011)

 

  

~Today is my first wedding anniversary…x sangke already one year aku through my life as wife kepada sidia..honestly,many things that I  learned since become a wife..sometimes,feel like dream n x sangka  dlm masa 1 year aku dh build my hepi family and now,dengan kehadiran my little precious,make our relations as a spouse more meaningful…From my deep heart,I'm proud to be myself because always berada beside org2 yang menyayangi aku xspecially my hubby..I know,he really love me..maybe sometimes him can't show off that he truly love me but aku knl dia more than everything…He always sacrifice for me…"Laut mana yg tidak bergelora,Bumi mana yg x ditimpa hujan"…same like our relations..gaduh2 itu  sdh pasti dlm kehidupan berumahtangga but up to us how 2 keeping it…I love my family n for me,family first…I love my hubby and I luv my daughter…I love both of them so much..seriously!!!Hidup berumahtangga teach me about patient,caring,loving and all of this make me to be matured…I'm be grateful coz have  understanding husband yg slalu berada di cc aku in any condition whether difficult or . easy he always being there's 4 me..you're my good person that I recognize..."1 year"bkn masa yg lame..act msh baru n banyk bendaneed 2 learn..smuanya take a time..apa yg penting,tolak ansur tue perlu between wife n husband..Hopefully,our relations will be lasting not for short term but long term..4ever n ever until GOD separates us by death…AMIN…..

Credit 2 my HUBBY : Thanks syg for everything...many thanksfor be a part of my life.Sumpah!!syg mmng suami yg terbaik buat b even b bukan wife yg terbaik buat syg..thanks for your extra concern & thanks coz accompany me until this day..b really appreciate it...I LOVE U...xoxo !!!

             
*tadaaaaaaaaaaa.......My Wedding Anniversary Cake....yummy....Just celebrate together.... : )

*No PaiN nO GaiN*

                                               
*Hi peeps!...lame rasenye x update blog and now i'm come back to sharing something...you know what,
SHARING is CARING rite?hu..hu...feel sad today..my lovely gurl not very well ..and of course i pun still rase the same thing...so pity..she very small to assume her pain...Ya ALLAH,let me to get her pain..asalkan my gurl sihat...why not?she is everything for me...apepun akan aku lakukan untk dia...GET WELL SOON yerk sayang..mama always pray for you AND mama still love u in any condition...swear!!miss to "gurau-gurau"with her...as usually...we spend time together before her sleep...hugs,kiss and whatever!!...can't describe through words but only person that become a mom will be feel seperti apa yang aku rasa...indahnya dunia...

Cinta Arisya...♥

*guys,almost 2 weeks aku start keje after 2 months   maternity..and for two weeks i drop ARISYA at rumah ibu dia...ARISYA have 2 mom's tau...he..he...honestly,mmng rase berat hati...berat hati berjauhan dgn dia but skrg feel comfort coz ARISYA have a good mom yg boleh take care dia when aku keje...n I think between them have a chemistry...so aku x worry sgt...thanks "friend"coz care ARISYA like your own baby..i appreciate it..many2 thank you...guys,ARISYA skrg dah makin montel tau...see,she have a chubby cheek..ha..ha..sometimes rase nk bite je... n makin nakal jugak...but still blh control...thanks GOD coz give me chance 2 becomes a mom for her and i promise will not sia-sia kan dia..swear !for now,she is "penenang jiwa"...can't be denied,kt tempat keje seriously tired tp bile balik keje jer look at her face sumpah hilang pnt...and i know all working mother sure through what i feel this now....hurmmmm,time show at 10.55 pm...maybe i need to stop here n get a rest..
ok guys,enough for today...will be continue soon..bye..bye....*HUGS*  o_O

~Frusted~

Hi guys....so bored this nite....suddenly rase nk sharing something...just story heart to heart....

lately feel different and not as often..i don't no why and maybe this is only my feeling..just ignore but i can't...what should i do?maybe i should to remove this problem far away from my life..i still try and i know i just a human being...sometimes not enough to face each problems that comes..indeed,too heavy this matter...kdg2 kiter bleh gelak2 dpn org tp dalam hati nobody knows...i'm so tired to acting like this because i'm not an actress..stop to pretend??how could??banyak hati yang perlu dijaga even terpakse hurt myself..act,this is not fair...wake up mimie...don't act like you happy : ),bahagia but actually you don't...

Tangisan dlm Kerinduan :(

Title yg x boleh blah..ha..ha...guys,today ary first aku start keje n for the first time aku split with my daughter...hu..hu...sumpah!sedih giler :(....kt tmpt keje asyik ingat dia jer n i always pray supaya diberi kekuatan melaluinye..berat tau rase hati....tuhan jer yg tau..mmng x dinafikan ikatan batin between mother n child tue kuat...serius and aku yg merasainyer..kdg2 aku pelik why some people like to make abortion when dah terlanjur..buang bayi mcm buang sampah...sedih bile hear,read about pembuangan bayi...xder perasaan ker??back 2 my story....td balik jer keje terus aku g ambik my daughter...baru one day but rase cam one year...puas aku hugs and kiss dia lepaskan rindu...rindu setengah mati...and now,baru aku rase betapa pentingnya dia in my life...very important...really...guys,to be continue yerk...suddenly x dpt nk cntrol emotion and now sambil type sambil crying....sebak sgt.....

P/s to myself : be strong mimie..i know u will..don't think negative..everything gonna be ok...if u always sad,your daughter feel same like u feel...(cubaan memujuk hati )...

++Puteri Kecilku++

Name : Nur Qairina Arisya Bte Abdul Rizal

D.O.B : 03/08/2011 @ 1.04 a.m

P.O.B : Hospital Sultan Ismail,JB 

Weight : 2.8 Kg


* Dear Arisya,mama dedicate this just for you....

My Little Princess,

Mama really luv you more than everything in this world..trust me…

You’re my special daughter….and mama will do anything for you…

My Little Princess,

Since you comes in my life,swear ! my life be colourful with your smile,action…

And  every seconds,I always miss you so much even you beside me…

My Little Princess,

From my deep heart,I don’t want to loss you…never…you’re my soul…without  you, I’m nothing…

At one time,you didn’t need to worry  and scared because you still have “MAMA” & I will hug yourself tightly…..whispered the verses love…I just want to say I love you

I need you and I miss you….really do…

My Little Princess,

Nothing 2 describe my feeling now and one more thing that I want you to know, "Mama is Yours"......

Growing fast sweet heart & called me "MAMA"... I will waiting this moment…

--->Thanks ALLAH because to be present cute baby for me... I will take care her whole my heart because she is "My Little Princess"

                      

Lots of LOVE,

Mama