DiLeMma

 

Yah,that words mentioned above is right..Now,i'm really2 dun know how to say..Too many bad feeling in my mind and need to think even i dun know how to solve all kinds of feeling that I've..Nobody knows what happened on myself..nobody...I've hubby and baby besides me and maybe i can shared everything to them but this time  i dun think so cause i prefer to keep itself in my heart..but how long???

I'm not strong to faced it alone but what can i do??*Teared eyes*...I admit,sometimes too fragile for through everything but i dun have any chance..Who i am to avoid the fate?? Bukan sape2... :(

I am in dilemma..Dilemma to make decision..Decision that will annoy many person..not only me,not only hubby but everyone who's closest with me..

But at the same time,how about my feeling?? Is it i need to pretend that I'm okay? but otherwise I'm not..

Sorry,that so not me cause i can't to do like that..However,i must make a decision sooner or later coz I really2 can't stand with this situation anymore...truly hurt...

Honestly,from deep of my heart,i have too many dreams that need to be goal but i'm not sure either it will be the reality or not..I hope so...maybe not today but eventually..Aminnn..

I'm just human being..had a mistakes,flaws and i'm realize that i'm not perfect but at least i still having a feelings same goes to everyone..I dun want anything but enough for me if my life will be smooth as well..

That's all..Is it too much guys?? Life is hard but sometimes its beautiful..Life without obstacles is not life..Yah,i know that..but when the obstacles comes up to me,a little bit makes me down and literally broken my heart,disturb my mood,and make me cry a whole nite..that's me.. I'm rarely to cry in front of the loved person but if I do means i can't stand anymore..

Mine was really in hard position just now..its looks like "Diluah mati emak,ditelan mati bapak",,so how could?? Tired to thinking what i've to do...Ya Allah,pls show me the right way.I'm begging to you..Pls open my heart to makes the right decision..Indeed,i'm a weak slave dan hanya padaMU tempatku meminta...Amin..

For now,just stay strong and keep calm..waiting and continue waiting "sinar bahagia" appear in my life..

Msg for myself :

"Be STRONG now..because things will get better..It may be stormy now but It can't rain forever"

-If Allah will-

Latest Arisya's..

Assalammualaikum sumer!! Well,today is my first working day since mine gonna had a longggg holidays..Okay, at first me was  felt like blurrr-blurrr coz dun know how to start works from where..plus,monday bluesss attack me whole of the day...hik..hik...hik..hope tomorrow will be better than today..Opsss! forget,tomorrow I've to working half day due to my baby need go to the clinic for  monthly checkup and she's will get one injection if i'm not mistaken..Tell me what guys?? so fasttt is it??? and diam x diam,my baby already turn's to 1 year 5 months...time goes so fasttt without we noticed that..agree???

Okay,for now my baby had a lot of "perangai"..mcm2 der and me admit , day the day she's semakin naughty..Sometimes mencabar kesabaran but dun worry,still boleh control lagi..normal la for kids yg baru nk grows up..as long we know the limits...Fyi guys,now,my baby start to learning how to speak..he..he..funny coz she can said a few words but x clear..but, me as her mom understand her well and try to understand her pronouns..kalo x,mengamuk la baby if there is a words she said kite x phm..and more funny when myself terfollow baby become a lisp aka pelat..ha..ha..ha..

I know,baby is a very talkative ..I assume like that on based her daily talking..Once she's start talking,
non-stop punyer...ade jer yg nk ditanya if something tue  forced her to ask..Hurmmm,that's my baby and just the way she's to be..Can't denied,sometimes terhibur with her and when I at workplace,really always miss
her "pot pet -pot pet"..Believe it,one day can't hear her voice me feel like was.....ade yg x kena and indeed,my life more brighter when hear her voice...percayalah... When i'm far away from her even for a minutes,gonna miss her "keletah" and everything about her coz we're one heart and she's a parts of my life..we need each others..Proud to say,she made my day everyday........ :)

Oh ya peeps,lately my baby too attractive with ball..just story,recently me brought my baby went to shopping mall and bought her cooking set toys..maklumlah,gegurl kan haruslah beli toys like that but guess what guys??she just ignore the toys and run to get a balls which located nearly with other toys..and not at shopping mall only ,wherever she go and if there is a balls,she will said "la"(bola) and kinda excited to get it!! Likewise when suddenly she was saw anything about football on TV..so exciteddd..

To be honest,totally,me dun like if she had an interested about ball coz for me,not suits for gurl but for boy okay la..Maybe her follow my hubby's interest..His likes football very well and also joined any tournament
and sometimes he's won that games.. I still remember what hubby said to me few years ago if his got baby boys one day,he will train to be a football player..ha..ha...so high his dream kan?? Maybe his expectations turun ke Isya,,ha..ha..If not,xkanlah baby too obsessed with ball like him right?? 

In anyway,she's still  had a lot of feminine for me..nothing wrong if her just makes the  football as her passion.. :).. Hurmmm, well guys, enough for tonite kot..me feel so sleepy now plus the weather forced me to pull my blanket and sleep while cuddle my baby..ahhhh,heaven...So,I end up my post with pic of baby....Enjoy! xoxo!!

* LUASKAN KUASAMU..hik..hik..hik...

-Boredom-

Hi Readers!! I know its been half of the month now memandangkan "February" is too short compare with other months,so I hope dis month end with gazillion happiness than before..Sorry for rarely updating..Actually,mine not busy as well but lazy mood comes and yah,,there was reasons...but tonite me feel too bored plus x rase nak tido pun..and,yeah.. "Boredom strikes" forcing me to typingggg.. Hubby busy with my Tab..focus on his angry bird gaming...hurmmm,minat sgt kan and baby,sleeping beauty edy..

Okay,my leave still remaining 3 days..working is starting soon..*sigh*...lg la boring after i've been got a long holidayyyyyyy..Hurmmmm,how i wish leave for a months..hik..hik..baik resign terus je kan?? tp bile cuti rase nk keje and bile keje rase nak cuti...nothing could explain how really i felt...even myself can't understand what i want indeed...

I try so hard just to makes myself comfort with what i went through everyday but its seems like...nothing..Day after day,I felt like I was........I really dun know.. How to describe my feeling right now pun I dun know...really.. :( The best way,just follow the flow and i just hand over all to the fate...I have to go..headed to bed now..

Till here then..Assalamualaikum...xoxo!!

CNY Holidays at LWOT....♉(^▿^)♉

Hey guys!! It's been a while after i abandoned my blog for a quite longgg time and to be honest,i'm not really into the bloggy mood lately..hurmmmm,i dun know why but now,i'm feeling like want to update something about my CNY holidays...Initially,i'm a little bit excited about our trip but actually biase2 jer..For baby,its fun but for me its tiring day that i through..Hewhew..Take a look at baby's pictures..she was kinda happy!! :)

*Ha..ha..big laugh when seeing this pics..U know why guys?? it's like....... we wanna going to oversea with luggage bagai..hik..hik..do i cares ?? :p

 And sebenarnya,me & hubby just joined Taman Molek folks went to here :

*LOST WORLD OF TAMBUN-Perak

We went  there by bus..Sumpah penat !! 8 hours straight inside bus after dah deduct 1 hour ++
when  bus stop for a while to take a rest..I got waist pain,flu and headache due to an air-cond are open with low temperature and me keep freezing like hell..Told ya,me is a person which can't stand with cold situation..
Better for onwards,going by own transport..I mean,it's very easily to adjust everything..ha..ha..

Okay, the pictures below is during the bus stopped at the last terminus.."Terminus Simpang Pulai" If i;m not mistaken...Okay,that time bus stop for half an hour  to able everyone taking breakfast before continue the journey..

* Luv dis pics!! so Lovely!!!

After having a short rest,we continued back our journey and it's taking another half an hour  before reach to LWOT..

*Inside Bus...Happy face but gambo agak blurr...Omelll baby..muahhh!!

Finally,we safely arrived..yeay!! Before entered and have fun ,plesing is a must!! But me as a photographer,I have no picture at there..hik..hik..hik..

*While waiting for entrance ticket ..

 For me,LWOT is an awesome place..one words out from my mouth once me reach at here.."wahhhh."(isya style)..hik...hik...isya pun pandai ckp camtue when she seeing something yng boleh  attract her attention..I luv the inside scenery,the outside views but about the services I don't !!.If i can give a score,i prefer to give 1 out of 10...Can you imagine guys?? nk simpan barang pun sshnye mintak ampun.. Siap password bagai and charges for that service is RM10..very expensive for me la..i dun know la for you all..simpan barang jer kot then,there is a lockers which can open for one time only..second time you must buy another token..complicated right?? 

And fyi,I can not take any such pictures while me at inside coz mcm ssh plak nk bring camera kesana-sini coz at the same time nk care baby,nk main air  even actually i'm feel rugi plak can't take any pictures....me can't buy souvenirs also due to the insufficient time that i've plus agak leceh nk pilih2 when baby beside me..she will start cranky and xleh dok diam...*sigh*..so, no pictures inside & no souvenirs! too bad,so sad..

Settled with everything,ready to go!! before going back,last pose from my baby...pity her coz she's suddenly got fever dis time..maybe the weather too hot..sizzling hot till baby's cheeks change to redness like wore a blusher..but,she's has been fine right now..
 

*In conjuction with CNY,we wore cloths with red theme..he..he..motif le sgt!!

That's all guys..hewhew..My holidays well spent with loved people around me..baby,hubby,relatives..it's an amazing and hope if Allah will,we joined again for next year trip but for sure la tempat lain plak..Neway,it's way too special for me!! *Big Hugs* xoxo !! bye!!