*keje*

                    *See,this is my office..so messy..huh....but oklah.....

Hey it's monday!!!!!Act, i had monday...u know why,it's first day in week..thats why make me so lazy....grrr...mls nk wake up at the morning...do my paper work...ofcoz la banyk gile...one word to describe my feeling rite now, STUCK!!!!!...sometimes,feel bored to do anything at office...he..he..n kdg2 kan,1 hari FB sampai x buat keje langsung...my boss??he didn't know anything...lgpun,he rarely masuk opis...one week only 2 or 3 times dia msk...who's care kan?aku apelagi,enjoy giler ar...n for sure la blogging...erm,let's story guys,u know what,one day aku ingt boss x masuk n aku ber FB x hengat...tau2 la...kalo dh on9 ssh nk stop kan n leka jer..suddenly bos comes from back..whoaaa...nervous beb n tetibe x sempat nk minimize..kantoi la apalagi...funny kan..honestly,bos x pnh scolded aku since aku keje kat situ cume pas insiden tue aku more careful la...must be respect kan even dia x mrh...xnk plak nanti dia thinks aku just take advantage..erm,forget it...as usual, i'm kind a fun wif my life...i means...wake up,keje,balik,met my daughter,,,that's all my routine everyday,,,*sigh....get tired guys...but no choice kan....nak xnak kene through jugak...kdg2 curi2sleep while working..ha..ha..like "mkn gaji buta" is it?i'm a mom,wife n i'm working...i must have a lot energy rite to do anything....can u imagine when u at the place of me?getting tired all the time...hu..hu...thats why i can easily get migrain...btw,apepun yg korang lakukan,enjoy jer..pnt ke ape ke,just go on k!!!...by peeps...will met you again..lots of love-mimie

___m[> <]m__ SEDIH...SAD....UNHAPPY & WHATEVER !!!!

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Dear friends...

How your day?everything goes well?hopefully...today my feeling not very well...unhappy with someone yang x tau nk appreciate kebaikkan orng...i'm so tired when terpakse jaga hati orang but hati sendri terluka...i'm try to be a good person bagi semua org but in the end smuanya sia-sia...what should i do this now...crying n crying :(

 but wif my tears,who's care??????xder meaning sume tu...as usually people say...kwn ketawa ramai but kawan menangis haram xder....i don't know what i'm going to do...i love all my friends who love me too and sebaik mungkin to protect our friendship as long as i will but dgn apa yang berlaku,it's truly hurt my heart..alot...

life always teach me about everything and now baru aku tau..wake up mimie...just be yourself...no need to care about "perasaan"orang...care your own feeling first be4 thinking another person..just way what you want to way..after that,no more tears falling down...guys,hope so...

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~My First Wedding Anniversary~(23.10.2011)

 

  

~Today is my first wedding anniversary…x sangke already one year aku through my life as wife kepada sidia..honestly,many things that I  learned since become a wife..sometimes,feel like dream n x sangka  dlm masa 1 year aku dh build my hepi family and now,dengan kehadiran my little precious,make our relations as a spouse more meaningful…From my deep heart,I'm proud to be myself because always berada beside org2 yang menyayangi aku xspecially my hubby..I know,he really love me..maybe sometimes him can't show off that he truly love me but aku knl dia more than everything…He always sacrifice for me…"Laut mana yg tidak bergelora,Bumi mana yg x ditimpa hujan"…same like our relations..gaduh2 itu  sdh pasti dlm kehidupan berumahtangga but up to us how 2 keeping it…I love my family n for me,family first…I love my hubby and I luv my daughter…I love both of them so much..seriously!!!Hidup berumahtangga teach me about patient,caring,loving and all of this make me to be matured…I'm be grateful coz have  understanding husband yg slalu berada di cc aku in any condition whether difficult or . easy he always being there's 4 me..you're my good person that I recognize..."1 year"bkn masa yg lame..act msh baru n banyk bendaneed 2 learn..smuanya take a time..apa yg penting,tolak ansur tue perlu between wife n husband..Hopefully,our relations will be lasting not for short term but long term..4ever n ever until GOD separates us by death…AMIN…..

Credit 2 my HUBBY : Thanks syg for everything...many thanksfor be a part of my life.Sumpah!!syg mmng suami yg terbaik buat b even b bukan wife yg terbaik buat syg..thanks for your extra concern & thanks coz accompany me until this day..b really appreciate it...I LOVE U...xoxo !!!

             
*tadaaaaaaaaaaa.......My Wedding Anniversary Cake....yummy....Just celebrate together.... : )

*No PaiN nO GaiN*

                                               
*Hi peeps!...lame rasenye x update blog and now i'm come back to sharing something...you know what,
SHARING is CARING rite?hu..hu...feel sad today..my lovely gurl not very well ..and of course i pun still rase the same thing...so pity..she very small to assume her pain...Ya ALLAH,let me to get her pain..asalkan my gurl sihat...why not?she is everything for me...apepun akan aku lakukan untk dia...GET WELL SOON yerk sayang..mama always pray for you AND mama still love u in any condition...swear!!miss to "gurau-gurau"with her...as usually...we spend time together before her sleep...hugs,kiss and whatever!!...can't describe through words but only person that become a mom will be feel seperti apa yang aku rasa...indahnya dunia...

Cinta Arisya...♥

*guys,almost 2 weeks aku start keje after 2 months   maternity..and for two weeks i drop ARISYA at rumah ibu dia...ARISYA have 2 mom's tau...he..he...honestly,mmng rase berat hati...berat hati berjauhan dgn dia but skrg feel comfort coz ARISYA have a good mom yg boleh take care dia when aku keje...n I think between them have a chemistry...so aku x worry sgt...thanks "friend"coz care ARISYA like your own baby..i appreciate it..many2 thank you...guys,ARISYA skrg dah makin montel tau...see,she have a chubby cheek..ha..ha..sometimes rase nk bite je... n makin nakal jugak...but still blh control...thanks GOD coz give me chance 2 becomes a mom for her and i promise will not sia-sia kan dia..swear !for now,she is "penenang jiwa"...can't be denied,kt tempat keje seriously tired tp bile balik keje jer look at her face sumpah hilang pnt...and i know all working mother sure through what i feel this now....hurmmmm,time show at 10.55 pm...maybe i need to stop here n get a rest..
ok guys,enough for today...will be continue soon..bye..bye....*HUGS*  o_O

~Frusted~

Hi guys....so bored this nite....suddenly rase nk sharing something...just story heart to heart....

lately feel different and not as often..i don't no why and maybe this is only my feeling..just ignore but i can't...what should i do?maybe i should to remove this problem far away from my life..i still try and i know i just a human being...sometimes not enough to face each problems that comes..indeed,too heavy this matter...kdg2 kiter bleh gelak2 dpn org tp dalam hati nobody knows...i'm so tired to acting like this because i'm not an actress..stop to pretend??how could??banyak hati yang perlu dijaga even terpakse hurt myself..act,this is not fair...wake up mimie...don't act like you happy : ),bahagia but actually you don't...

Tangisan dlm Kerinduan :(

Title yg x boleh blah..ha..ha...guys,today ary first aku start keje n for the first time aku split with my daughter...hu..hu...sumpah!sedih giler :(....kt tmpt keje asyik ingat dia jer n i always pray supaya diberi kekuatan melaluinye..berat tau rase hati....tuhan jer yg tau..mmng x dinafikan ikatan batin between mother n child tue kuat...serius and aku yg merasainyer..kdg2 aku pelik why some people like to make abortion when dah terlanjur..buang bayi mcm buang sampah...sedih bile hear,read about pembuangan bayi...xder perasaan ker??back 2 my story....td balik jer keje terus aku g ambik my daughter...baru one day but rase cam one year...puas aku hugs and kiss dia lepaskan rindu...rindu setengah mati...and now,baru aku rase betapa pentingnya dia in my life...very important...really...guys,to be continue yerk...suddenly x dpt nk cntrol emotion and now sambil type sambil crying....sebak sgt.....

P/s to myself : be strong mimie..i know u will..don't think negative..everything gonna be ok...if u always sad,your daughter feel same like u feel...(cubaan memujuk hati )...

++Puteri Kecilku++

Name : Nur Qairina Arisya Bte Abdul Rizal

D.O.B : 03/08/2011 @ 1.04 a.m

P.O.B : Hospital Sultan Ismail,JB 

Weight : 2.8 Kg


* Dear Arisya,mama dedicate this just for you....

My Little Princess,

Mama really luv you more than everything in this world..trust me…

You’re my special daughter….and mama will do anything for you…

My Little Princess,

Since you comes in my life,swear ! my life be colourful with your smile,action…

And  every seconds,I always miss you so much even you beside me…

My Little Princess,

From my deep heart,I don’t want to loss you…never…you’re my soul…without  you, I’m nothing…

At one time,you didn’t need to worry  and scared because you still have “MAMA” & I will hug yourself tightly…..whispered the verses love…I just want to say I love you

I need you and I miss you….really do…

My Little Princess,

Nothing 2 describe my feeling now and one more thing that I want you to know, "Mama is Yours"......

Growing fast sweet heart & called me "MAMA"... I will waiting this moment…

--->Thanks ALLAH because to be present cute baby for me... I will take care her whole my heart because she is "My Little Princess"

                      

Lots of LOVE,

Mama

Just Story...

Hye..met again...rasenyer aku rarely write this blog..hurmmm..bleh caye ker??ade jer ms aku update...act,today aku x wat keje umah langsung..u know why?jage my little daughter,1 keje x blh wat...write this pun sbb baby tido..tp tido2 ayam...nie pun sambil pangku sambil type...my hubby confirm bising when balik keje look kitchen n living room so messy...huh!!!sorry syg...this is not our baby fault...hope u understanding my situation...(biaselah der bb x leh nk fokus pd 1 keje rite?) i promise everything getting done on saturday...ms nie hubby half day n boleh dia jage bb sementara aku,hope get a lot energy to do homework....INSYAALLAH...pnt kan rupenyer jd surirumah nie...sumpah!penat giler...but bile tgk jer muke baby,suddenly hilang pnt...she always my princess...for now,i don't really have a plan to add baby again...biarlah ARISYA bsr dulu...my second baby will comes if aku rase btl2 dah bersedia...tp buat ms terdekat nie,i'm not ready yet..i'm still trauma of that 4 hours in labour room..lame tue...very hurt!!! tp my husband always talked with her daughter nk adik x?what's going on?huh...arisya still kecil lg la syg...

p/s to my hubby : Now,we must discuss about family planning...it's important rite?give me two years for preggy again...if ade rezeki,adelah...and i will give you baby boy likes u always wanted for a second child...but dgn izin ALLAH...kite merancang,tuhan menentukan...


ok peeps!!!!enough to write...lenguh nie kaki pangku baby..will updates soon..wait ya...*HUGS*muahhhhhhh!!!

DiLeMa :'(

* Morning!have a good day today...erm,time went so quickly ya....hampir x sdr dah hampir end of the month & by now the most important is MENTAL PREPARATION..yer la,i'm just counting the days n lg brape hari jer nk back to work as usual...act,berat sgt hati....kan best kalo mase boleh undur balik...the problem now,boleh ke aku berjauhan dgn anak aku??maybe take a time kan nk biasekan tp kuat ke MENTAL aku...sumpah,mcm x kuat jer...boleh jer kalo aku nk resign tp rasa x FAIR pulak pd company coz aku nie blh dikatekan org kuat jugak la...ha..ha...lgpun,since aku keje kat company tue,bnyk benefit yang aku dpt...BOS pun ok...hurmmm,so how?? make decision is not easy kan?maybe,cara terbaik aku teruskan dulu ape yg patut...if aku rase xblh barulah fikir mcm mane...(^,*)

.......Me,Myself & I.......

                            

"Menj@di diri sendiri @d@l@h lbh b@ik drpd menj@di diri or@ng l@in"

~i'm PROUD to be your WIFE...ahaksss!!!~

Hye!!!ermmm,lame rasenyer x update blog nie...(ceh..padahal br brape hari)...act,tangan nie gatal nk write something...guys,nape sometimes perlu der pertengkaran suami isteri??????*(bg yang dah kawen la)...bkn nk story hal rumahtangga n i know this is privacy but just nk sharing with each others...seriously, x suke situation like this tp after gaduh jer mesti hubby akn jadi more romantik...ha..ha...x spt biasa...think positif k,kalo x der gaduh x best ar kan but jgn ar smpi gaduh kaw2...gaduh2 syg xper coz ianya akan mengeratkan lg relations...for me,"SEDANGKAN LIDAH LAGI TERGIGIT niekan pulak SUAMI ISTERI..."apepun,aku bersyukur sgt sbb dpt husband yg UNDERSTANDING,CARING,LOVING dan yg plg penting BERTANGGUNGJAWAB...i really love him :P....OMG,i can't imagine if i will loss him..loss him mean i loss my strength...hope,our relations will be lasting forever n ever...AMIN....pray for me ya guys....k lah...just smpi sini..i will update later...PEACE no WAR...xoxo !!!!!!!

~LUAHAN RASA~

* Morning peeps!!actually aku nk update blog nie mlm td but atas reason2 tertentu this morning baru dpt update..ape yang aku tulis ary nie,aku dedicate kt someone yg paling aku MENYAMPAH tahap asbestos...maybe,i shouldn't mention her name...aku x tau  nape ko suker compare aku ngan ko....me it's me...mane same ngan ko...x pyh nk GOOD-GOOD sgt ar...kesian jer aku tgk...aku tau r ko blajar smpi DEGREE but why skrg still dok umah...result gempak pun menganggur jugak...biar mcm aku,level SPM jer..blh jer keje atleast x menganggur mcm ko...act,aku x ingin nk interfere hidup ko tp ko yg slalu buat KECOH....i don't mind if ko nk menganggur ke ape tp apsal plak ko ckp aku keje sbb x cukup duit?x mampu?TOLONGLAH....stop amik tau hal aku...dah xder keje sgt la tue...ANNOYING tau x????????ko tue mampu sgt ker?kesian..kete pun xder...SEE????aku mls jer nk bersuara...kalo aku bersuara SAKIT ko nanti..WHATEVER!!!!

: :Kisah Dongeng by $TACY: :

"Ku sedar ku tak SEBERAPA
Jika dibanding mereka
Yang jauh lebih MEGAH dari diri ini

Apa yang mampu ku berhias
Hanyalah hati yang IKHLAS
Terpendam simpan untuk dia yang sudi

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Mencintai aku bukan kerana rupa
Dalam waktu sedu
Dalam waktu hiba
Ku harapkan dia rela

Mencintai aku dengan seadanya
Sanggup menerima INSAN X SEMPURNA
Atau mungkin cinta sebegitu hanya
KISAH DONGENG saja

Belum pernah ku merasakan
Dipeluk dalam dakapan
Eratnya melindungi jiwa rapuh ini

Sanubariku memerlukan
Kehadiran seorangTEMAN
TULUS mencurah kasih sepenuh hati"

+JERICHO in Memories+

       * jarang kan kite jumpa rabbit yg mkn biskut?he..he..but JERICHO do!!

  *Seriously,miss my rabbit damn so much!!

: :Hi!this is my lovely rabbit..her name is Jericho.. I don't know why,sometimes mesti teringat dkt my pet nie but it's already dead a few months ago..maybe org blh ckp it's just a rabbit but for me it's more than that...aku ingt lg, first aku beli dia at pets shop..mase tue dia kecik jer..dia arnab yang manja...ofcoz la bile dia mati terasa sgt coz almost 2 years aku care dia but lastly dia mati..it's a great loss..I'll miss the moment when we through together...after JERICHO dead,aku x berminat nk beli another one coz bg aku xkan same....4 me,this is my one n only..bile dia mati,beria2 aku nangis..x taulah kenapa...maybe i'm not good enough 2 take care dia..tue yang rase terkilan sgt...dia mati sbb sakit n i can't do anything to release her suffering..now,aku dah bley terima hakikat jika itu yg membuatkan dia x menderita...i just let u go...GOOD BYE JERICHO..!! :'(

L0vE Ar!sYa......

*ARISYA,she is my daughter...ofcoz aku syg sgt kat dia...when look at her face,my feeling calm down...now,rase mcm x boleh berjauhan dgn dia even sedetik skalipun..just nk hug,kiss her for lasting...erm,xtau mcm mane nk imagine bile aku start keje after 2 months maternity...sure laa aku nangis...n hampir 2 bln tue jugaklah we spend time together...miss that moment..!i'm not strong 2 face it....SYG,i love u...n i really do...:(

~Beginning my Day~

~Hi readers....morning....actually,aku bgn awal pg nie...untk pgetahuan korang,since dah jd mama nie,xboleh nk bgn lmbt...many things perlu buat..starting mmng rase x biase tp kene biasekan jugak...sometimes rase mcm x cukup mase nk do everything even bgn awal skalipun...sumpah,aku rase dh mcm SUPERMAK dah...he..he..but aku slalu talked 2 myself "everything that i do,anggap ianya 1 tanggungjawab",apepun yg kite lakukan akan berjalan dgn smooth..SURE!xoxo :)

~ANUGERAH TERINDAH DLM HIDUPKU~

~First at all,the beautiful things that was happened in my life adalah kehadiran NUR QAIRINA ARISYA...buah cinta antara aku dan dia...honestly,kehadirannya bnyk mengubah hidupku...try 2 be a good mom for her...everthing that i do now only for her...everything....u know what,excited tau since jd mama nie....my husband?for sure la excited....apepun,satu jer yg aku hrp,smoga dia menjadi anak yg baik ...anak yg membanggakan....AMIN...~